Killer Blue Whale

Jan 15 2013

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I debated on whether to post this off and on for a few hours. But I am extremely focused, in my life, with my team, and with the broader entrepreneur community, to be brutally honest. To engage in no bullshit. To be authentic. Real-time. No spin, no positioning. That’s the opposite of honesty, transparency, truth. Life’s too short. If there’s one thing I want to be known for, is that I tell it how it is.

Entrepreneurs have the highest highs. And the lowest lows. We can simultaneously live in our minds where 1. we are so convinced we can change the world that we set aside normal thinking and strike out to do what most people see as impossible: to create something from nothing; but 2. we are so afraid of failure, it can at times almost paralyze us from taking the very actions and risks necessary for the shot at success. I think we’re all bipolar. Or at least mentally disturbed. Probably dropped on our heads or something as kids.

Anyway, again, I could easily justify just letting this little thing slide by. Why even share at all? What if it creates problems? What if people read it the wrong way? See, even inside of this simple blog post, I’m battling 2 voices in my head. Risk is this dump is not good for me or the company. Reward is that by sharing unadulterated honesty, other deranged souls can commiserate and hopefully see some “normalcy” in a career that’s the utter opposite of normal.

First, a quick “Disclaimer” to current and future potential investors: I am 113.7% in all ways, shapes, and forms, and to the best of my ability, intelligence, and skill committed to do all in my power (and some that’s not) to see spectacular success with DropShip.com. For those that have invested, your trust in me and the DS team is so meaningful, we are on it. But I’m human. I have hopes, fears, pressure…

…so and without further ado, here’s an IM from about 3 hours ago, sort of that came out stream of consciousness, that I had with my wife Amy (BTW, watch what she does. Entrepreneurs you better hope you have the right spouse, like I do, or you should probably either give up entrepreneurship or jump on google right now and type “divorce attorney” in the box and hit I’m feeling lucky. Whole other batches of posts about spouses of entrepreneurs and how they support/build up.) after a long and very productive and exciting and taxing and typical entrepreneurial day of meetings/calls I had on a business trip here in NYC:

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7:39
JerCore
amy I’m worried
this biz is getting serious. these investors, they just expect so much
it’s so high expectations

7:39
Amy Hanks
What, like results?

7:49
JerCore
I see these really really really smart and experienced people saying, Jer, I am investing in you. (I’ve literally had 6-7 people say those exact words). and they are giving us significant money. Some of that money comes from people I consider friends

7:49
JerCore
and I also see these really really really smart and experience people get so excited about what we could do with this business/opportunity

7:50
JerCore
like as in, it could be huge

7:52
JerCore
it’s so much pressure, they’re trusting me with that money

7:52
Amy Hanks
I know it stresses you out.

7:52
JerCore
it’s my reputation
my entire career, past, present, and future

7:53
Amy Hanks
I think you’re getting yourself worked up a bit, too. You’re sitting in New York in your hotel room. You’re probably exhausted, feeling overwhelmed, with hours of work ahead of you.
Settle down. Have you eaten dinner yet?
Maybe go out for a walk. Take a little break to clear your head.
Go work out.

8:02
JerCore
when we take their money, which we do because they do not F around, and I’m just stressed as hell about being able to deliver. I know I can do it. it’s just so much pressure. I’m really struggling with it. On one hand, I’m so so excited. The last 2 days have been awesome
on the other, I’m paranoid.

8:06
Amy Hanks
i know. And I’m just trying to talk you down. I think you’re experiencing what it’s like for a big fish to leave his little pond and realize that there’s a lot more to the world than he thought.
It’s ok to be nervous. It’s ok to be scared. It means you’re growing.

8:09
JerCore
yeah. good point. now my new mission in life: i’m going to be a big fish in the entire ocean!

8:10
Amy Hanks
Baracuda.

8:11
JerCore
Baracuda? Seriously? blue f’ing whale baby.

8:11
Amy Hanks
i thought you might want to be something a little more bad ass than a whale!

8:12
JerCore
“The blue whale is a marine mammal belonging to the suborder of baleen whales. At 30 metres in length and 170 tonnes or more in weight, it is the largest known animal to have ever existed.”
what is more bad ass than the largest known animal to have ever existed?!
that’s like 340,000 pounds

8:13
Amy Hanks
A killing machine like a barracuda!

8:14
JerCore
blue whales eat great white sharks and their pansy barracuda friends like they’re peanuts in a bowl at a bar

8:14
Amy Hanks
Ha! Shows what you know. Baleen whales eat krill.

8:16
JerCore
not my sub-species
I’m a Killer Blue Whale

8:16
Amy Hanks
LOL!

8:16
JerCore
if it’s alive, we eat it

8:16
Amy Hanks
Ah! Never heard of it.

8:16
JerCore
we’ve been known to breech ourselves in Africa, eat 5/6 elephants, couple lions, and a wildebeest or two, then back in the ocean we go
apex predators

8:17
Amy Hanks
Wow! Impressive!

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So. Get to it. Fear is good. Pushing yourself (and having others push you) is good. Inventing a new species that’s an Apex Predator is very, very good.

This letter from Hunter S Thompson is applicable:

My dear,

You know what I tell myself everytime I write?

Faster, faster, until the thrill of speed overcomes the fear of death.

I sit on my chair, and force myself to write… and keep writing, until I get to that point where it’s no longer the fear of mortage payments that’s driving me, ’till it’s no longer the thoughts of long days with empty stomachs forcing my fingers to glide over that keyboard – but instead, the thrill of writing one letter after the other, one word after the next, one sentence after the former… until I write for writing in itself.

It’s comparable to riding down a one way dead-end steep highway on a bike with no brakes. At first all you can think about is your death in the more than likely head-busting collision that’s about to happen. But pretty soon you realize that the road is infinitely long and infinitely steep – all you’re doing is gaining speed, and there’s no end in sight. Heck, you can probably ride this thing now with no arms.
And that’s when the fun starts.

Falsely yours,

Hunter Stockton Thompson

Entrepreneur to Entrepreneur? Kick ass my friends. Kick ass.

-Jer

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  • A Hustler

    Word

  • rossjwalker

    Amen.

    If I ever get a tattoo it will be “we’ve been known to breech ourselves in Africa, eat 5/6 elephants, couple lions, and a wildebeest or two, then back in the ocean we go”

  • http://twitter.com/parkerboyack Parker Boyack

    I really hope to find a wife like yours. That conversation was awesome! Keep up the good work, you guys will do great.

  • Thewesly

    So awesome.